23rd on the 23rd

Been wanting to write this but took me a while. Been busy with midterms but I have soo much to say.. hehe.

My 23rd birthday was in fact the most fun and funniest birthday bash I ever had. It's also the night that made me realized how ignorant I could be sometime, or blur or tak paham bahasa. heheh. Besides all the major signs given by Aneesa and Is, I still couldn't figure out what's going on until few seconds before Is gave his loud-heartdropping-snap at us (me and Aneesa) which made me jump few inches backward but... it's all good =)

The Signs....

• I asked Nad if she wants to go out earlier in the day but she resisted it well by saying that she's busy.. which is not usually the case. She will usually say ok though she's busy. hehe


• Aneesa brought me to Salmon house nearby our apartment which is suppose to close at 9pm on Sunday but her reservation is at 9.15pm. I thought maybe I got the closing time wrong or they changed the closing time for Sunday.


• Aneesa forgot to bring her camera and insisted that we go back to take them.. Salmon house jer ponn.. is camera that important? haha but I just followed her since we still have few more minutes before our reservation time and our apartment isn't that far anyway.


• Is miscalled Aneesa. I asked who, and Aneesa said that Is 'always' miscalled her. Since when? I don't know.. Maybe Is was just bored hehe


• We got home, went into the living room and Aneesa's face changed! She said something smells funny but I honestly didn't smell anything.. no wonder lah, they're not there! Of course it's a surprise for Aneesa.. haha


• Now Aneesa lost her key, we searched for them upstairs like crazy.. erm Hello? We're already late for our reservation at Salmon House.


• Went downstairs.. Aneesa locked the apartment's door. Eh, I thought we're going out??


• Saw a giant sandal in front of our apartment's door.. wait, that sandal looks verryy familiar, hmm? (sungguh bijak Is tinggalkan selipar)

I almost figured it out.... but Is came and gave me the sudden strike and the others were in the living room saying 'Happy Birthday'!!! =) Awww, I was so terharu(moved).

For more detailed chronology.. check out Aneesa's blog.


Pictures...

people : Aneesa, Nad, Sarah, Iskandar, Wanlin, Babeng, Daphne, Yuko, Patricia, Me. =)

Notes
I really want to thank them for being so thoughtful and kind.. :)
It wasn't exepcted because our usual routine for the past years were just a nice small get together dinner. So much for projects due next day lah Nad and Sarah! hehe.
It was very nice of them to cook and bought stuff for the event.. and of course, the gifts. THANK YOU dear all..

And not forgetting those who did remembered my birthday.. bought me presents.. took me out for dinner.. sent me birthday cards all the way to the US and gave me birthday wishes be it on Friendster, Facebook, or Emails. I appreciate it all. My 23rd birthday was wonderful and meaningful because of you guys =)




ARINA @ AYIN @ NARFIASKA @ EMMET @ ARROYO

Only Time

Who can say where the road goes,
Where the day flows, only time?
And who can say if your love grows,
As your hearth chose, only time?

Who can say why your heart sights,
As your live flies, only time?
And who can say why your heart cries
when your love lies, only time?

Who can say when the roads meet,
That love might be ,in your heart?
and who can say when the day sleeps,
and the night keeps all your heart?
Night keeps all your heart.....

Who can say if your love groves,
As your heart chose, only time?
And who can say where the road goes
Where the day flows, only time?

Who knows? Only time

Monday Medley

I'm officially sick of reading today.. had a grande starbucks at 2pm and just got back frm bubble tea @ midnite but I'm still not getting the right mood to continue reading.. *sigh*. If reading is not my thing, why do I enjoy the class? If I like the class, why do I hate the readings assignment? hmmm.. I just like the discussion part kot, hear out people ideas.. but not giving out mine.

Nyways, this news worsen my mood when I realized that I only have 50% chance of getting my working visa in the US. The applications were just opened for 2 days and it reached double the quota. AND they'll randomly select half of the applications to be reviewed and that means.. there's 50% chance that my visa application will not be reviewed at all. grrrrr... thank God for the OPT.. at least I can have that one year to work without working visa.

currently listening to... What I've Done by Linkin Park Sorry, your browser doesn't support the embedding of multimedia.

In this farewell, There is no blood, There is no alibi, Cause I’ve drawn regret, From the truth, Of a thousands lies, So let mercy come and wash away… ** What I’ve Done, I’ll face myself, To cross out what I’ve become, Erase myself, And let go of what I’ve done… Put to rest, What you thought of me While, I clean this slate, With the hands, Of uncertainty, So let mercy come, And wash away… ** For what I’ve done, I start again, And whatever pain may come, Today this ends, I’m forgiving what I’ve done… ** What I’ve Done, What I’ve Done, Forgiving what I’ve done…

Self-Harm

I received a shocking news today.. I'm feeling disappointed, regret and sorry at the same time for a friend of mine. Why do people self harm? Is it a way of voicing the pain that someone is feeling to the others or is it a choice to satisfy ones unmet needs? WE all lives in a cruel world. Its cruel for a reason, and for a very good reason... to teach you how to be a BETTER person. The more challenges you've gone through.. the more you learn and understand about yourself. What you want to do, where you want to be, whom you want to be friend with..

Why there are no nice people left in the the world?
Because all the nice people are taken advantage of when they try and help people, then they get screwed over and turn bitter just like everyone else. hehe.. no? Get over it.. we shape the world we're living in.

So, my point is.. No matter how hard you have to survive, how big the problem you're facing, how useless you feel about yourself, just know the fact that there are other people out there who feel the same way.. You are not alone. You might not find the comfort that you're looking for.. because the only comfort you can find is within yourself. I'm writing this to remind myself and others, WE decide what is going to happen to us. Though we believe in fate.. we do have some controls over it right?

We could constantly be 'the enemy to ourselveS' or we could 'choose to make peace'.. so think wisely.

You could make someone realize that they are needed if you just take the time to ask them if they are okay. You don't need to spend forever with them just long enough so they know you care. -above

To those who are always there for me, I thank you. To those that I haven't got the chance to show that I care, I'm sorry.. but know this, you are always in my thoughts.

Too much stuff available online..

I'm Engaged =)

Yes. it's true.. the rumors you heard. I've been keeping it for a while cuz I'm giving myself and of course my fiancé some time to learn this. Sorry for not telling you guys earlier.. I'm just waiting for the right time to come. This thing is so big for me.. and you guys know that right? It happens so fast, and I myself could not believe that this is actually already happening to me. I could just see my life is entirely shifting to a new phase in the next few months, for better or worse, no one knows but of course, I'm hoping for the best. So now my life would be so much different. I need to become the so called 'more-polite-behaving' girl tul tak? hehe.. Ramai ni kene jadi tok guru.. damn.

Well.... yes.. there you go another april fool for you fools... hahaha. Cis aku marah ni siapa buat cerita. If I'm engaged, or married, I'll make it public. Especially to those I promised to tell.. and I will not reluctantly react to whatever rumor other people are saying coz I'm just so sick of people believing without asking.

helloo.. I'm not giving up my freedom yet. and if I am, I'm hoping to find a worthy person I can give up to. I have way too much stuff in my head than getting engaged or married. For God sake, I can't even cook for myself and you expect me to cook for some random guy. tolong sikit.. hehe. And for those who are too confuse to know what's going on, you can just ignore this post and pretend you never read it. This post is intended to those who have been calling and messaging me the past few days asking for my respond.

So dear friends, I appreciate your concern but I ask you to trust me that I will not leave you behind if something major happened in my life cause you guys were there to support me all along k?? No more "I heard that... but... because you... and you... is it true? " ok? If it's true.. then no other uncertainties need to be in the fact. thots.