Packed

I'm soooooooo packed with things to do right now. It's a week before finals and I'm shifting all my finals to this week so that I can go down to Vegas with my parents. Yezza.. they're here =) The only thing that makes me fly in the air and motivates me to keep on living the nightmares of finals. So, I have 1 take-home final, a paper final, a major project and a final presentation due tomorrow (Friday) before I fly down to Vegas in the evening. *crappp*. It's going to be a super long night and day for me! It almost killed me but thinking of what's awaiting for me, I'll tell myself to keep on moving. And this is my 15 minutes break from my hot-date with the OS filesystems project. It's almost 9 pm and all 45 computers in this lab are occupied and my forkbomb server is crashing. The very good thing is, all these keep me busy so that I have no time to dwell over sadness, or scariness of my future life. Alrite, enuf said, anyone have good suggestions of places to visit in Vegas and San Francisco? My family is going to be here for almost 3 weeks and I have no freaking idea where to bring them. My convocation would be next Saturday, June 9th and I've gotten my cap and gown. The big one is not going to be so much fun but I'm looking forward for my department's convocation. Finally, I'm done spending 4 years living the life of the dead, and it's almost over. oh, can't complaint about that, I might have a scarier life in the future. Never knew what's going to happen to me makes me tumble. 15 minutes up. back to my date!!

Destiny

Who knows what might happen, right?
People live their life as it is.
I do believe in fate.
And I believe the best thing that could happen to me
had been written.
I know that there's no turning back for me.
I don't know how much I should regret for my mistakes.
And how long should this feeling haunt me.
My life could be changing few days or years from now.
I might be happy and I might not.
I might be successful and I might not.
I might be alive and I might not.
I might have my freedom and I might not.
Whatever happens, I pray so that I can take it.
And live the life that had been written for me.

Special thanks to Izwa for the video. It really made my day today. =)
I'd like to dedicate this song below to everyone I know.
Enjoy the day when the freedom is still yours.

I do Sumo

Last Thursday was a fun outing day. I attended two events which in return allows me to enjoy free food, gifts and fun activities. So during my department BBQ event, I decided to try what they call sumo wrestle. So I jumped in their sumo suit which is super heavy with another friend to have a real sumo wrestle. We look silly but heck, I don't care. Other people tried it too and it's there for us to have fun right? We (my friend and I) couldn't stop laughing at ourselves and of course the people around us too.. especially the photographer. So in case you're wondering how I look like in those suit, below are some of the pics in chronos...

Nightmares

They lasts several nights.
They are disturbing.
They made me all nighters.
They changed my sleep pattern.
They let me wonder why.
And made me look for the answer how.
Then I started to think of "what ifs" questions.
Then it started to get ugly.
They reassured me of what I've lost.
They confirmed my mistakes.
Then I know I need to be on my bended knees.
Then I realized,
I need the people I foolishly abandoned.
They just taught me a lot.
And I'm glad it's over.


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Ungu -Andai Ku Tahu

Of letting go

for unix people...



It shouldn't be that hard right? hahaa. kudos to Kameron. I really wish it's that easy tho.. a single line and an enter would definitely do it.

Girls in My Cirlcle =)

For all my dear girlfriends....

When I was little,
I used to believe in the concept of one best friend,
And then I started to become a woman.

And then I found out that if you allow your heart to open up,
God would show you the best in many friends…

One friend is needed when you're going through things with your Mom.
Another friend is needed when you're going through things with your man.
Another when you want to shop, share, heal, hurt, joke, or just be.

One friend will say, "Let's cry together,"Another, "Let's fight together,"
Another, "Let's walk away together." and another, "We'll just hang in there together".

One friend will meet your spiritual need,
Another your shoe fetish,
Another your love for late night movies,
Another your crave for starbucks,
Another your passion for music,
Another your place to keep valuable secrets,
Another will be with you in your season of confusion,
Another will be your clarifier,
Another the wind beneath your wings.

But whatever their assignment in your life,
On whatever the occasion,
On whatever the day,
Or wherever you need them to meet you with their gym shoes on,
Or to hold you back from making a complete fool of yourself,
Or to remind you of things you've forgotten,
Those are your best friends.

It may all be wrapped up in one woman,
But for many, it's wrapped up in several...
One from 7th grade,
Few from high school,
Several from the college years,
A couple from old jobs,
On some days your mother,
On some days your neighbor,
On others, your sisters,
And on some days, it's going to be your daughters.

Be it 23 minutes or 23 years, I'm glad that I have girlfriends that I can count on.

A weekend in detail...

This is just another tell-no-point story entry. If not interested, shooooshhh...

The weekend started off interestingly on Friday evening when I was paged to work for emergency. The air condition in our department's server room broke down so most of the servers were overheated. Our main Xerxes server crashed and melted down so me and my boss had to go in to the 95F server room and try to cool off the room. berkipas, meniup semua buat. The worst part was having to bring all the 15 servers out from the room and reconfigure it so that the network is still there. Thank God it was Friday evening so there's not much of annoying phone calls and complaints.

After work, I'm off to join the MaSA bowling. I didn't play since I'm already late but it was nice to see bunch of them playing as a group and had fun. At the same time, we were busy preparing proposal for the midwest game. It's going to be hosted at Northern Illinois University (The Website). I was contemplating if I should go since I would be super busy but someone successfully convinced me to register.. hehe. Back to the weekend... after bowling, we all had dinner together and hang out at (nad's, sarah's, daphne's) apartment.

On Saturday, I spent most of the day in the CS lab working on my OS and INFO project. Honestly, I do find that it's fun to hangout with CS peeps once in a while at the lab. I think they could be very crazy and funny during weekends or after midnight especially when most of us are stressing out about the same thing. Working to configure linux kernel and do basic operating system programming was never fun for me but it's all good. I rather spent time with them to keep me busy then stressing out about silly things. Dart called me in the evening.. we chatted, and somehow she managed to convince me to play soccer for Penn State.. haha,Dart deary, you have to be prepared for the worst player you will be seeing playing for your team. I didn't have the Samura's skills and experience for almost 5 years now. But hell I missed riadah dekat Samura tu..haha. This is also the day that I had the most immature fight with the most immature manusia on earth. ishhh.. not wrestling kinda fight ok, it's more like darjah 3 punya fight. haha.. why? I think because both of us just want to remind ourselves how it's like to be budak2 again. Heck, he deserves it anyway..

And it's now Sunday... spent few hours homeworking, and I really2 can't sit in my room anymore... something bothered me.. so I decided to kacau ppl.. First target, Nad. As usual, she would say OK so we spent some time at sbux, chatting and planning.. hehe. Then when she's off to her group meeting, I wander on the ave trying to find something to look at. Then I decided to do some grocery shopping... heck, I spent a lot. *not a very good sign*. Now I'm back in my room.. and as you can tell, I'm bored to death. Everyone's at the lab but I'm waiting for them to come back so that I could force them to play with my new toy. Oh yes, I bought myself a new toy for the midwest. Check this out...
hahah.. it looks exactly like mine oo except the white stripes are maroon stripes. Do not kutuk as I wouldn't care what you have to say. I'm really in a crazy mood now. Spice girls songs have been blasting in my room for a few days and I've been telling a lot of my ole friends bout the crazy things they never thought I cold have done. haha.. ey don't get scared. I just think the 3 cans of soda and self window shopping drove me to be hyper for a while. wawaweewah.. budak2 lab, cepat balik!